Thursday, October 30, 2008

well... it's official...

I am Hereby Declaring The End of one of the Worst years of my life. Although it started last November with Finally getting Chicken Pox, Followed by friendly demises... corresponding with The break down of my old website & quick make of the new one... continued with my Gramma having multiple strokes & then passing away... a tense family reunion at the funeral, topped off with one of the worst marital experiences of my life (luckily that part is over & we have moved on... together & stronger but only time can tell). And further heightened by my ultimate performance of Dark Muse full of a Room of my peers, a LONG train trip up to Portland... Breaking my phone, further Technology snaffu's and a Definate Punch out of my Altered Funk that I have been in FOR MONTHS.
I swear if feels like when you are down there is always someone there who wishes to continue to kick you... sometimes it is the one you trust the most.

Anywho.... As of today.... tomorrow Hallows Eve.... and all future references to this year... I am hereby declaring Future Happiness upon myself... and to those around me that I cherish and love. To the Future art that I have yet to create in whatever fashion it comes. To all of those that may still be struggling in many degrees of sadness, funkness & dark dank holes.
Pick yourself up soon my dears... life is too short to be perpetually sad, or down in the dumps, or down on yourself. Cut out the worst of your bad habits (no matter how good they may make you feel for the moment... it never lasts)... Just get out there and CREATE something... Create Life...

If you need to Crawl inside your artistic space... if it is safest there, then Dwell there most often if you must... but work through the pain that way if you have to....

I am done being sad...

Time to reorganize my life, my art, my business, my sounds.

kisses...
~X~